Tuesday, January 22, 2008

there's a history blog for our batch. seems really cool. i think Mr Ong thinks we are online like 24/7 because he updates it so often. the best thing about the thing i just checked out is: EXTENSION OF THE ESSAY! cool. i was intending to finish it this week but i can shelve it for now. just realised i have 8 newspaper articles to complete for History alone. okay i shall get started on them. just asked Mr Ong for help to get 2 more SEA articles. hope he'll really give it to us.

Econs test tomorrow. i start the day with that subject and end the day with that subject. thanks so much. i so LOVE the subject and the pain it brings me. totally regret taking Economics and NOT CSE. i dont even know of such thing alright. argh. cant even take a MC on her tutorial days, which is everyday except Monday. Literature students fall sick easily, unlike SCIENCE students. yeah Lit students are not human and they are. i so fully appreciate the kindness shown. she's prejudice against Lit students. it's SO OBVIOUS. but she's good. what can i say? she can help me Ace my Econs. bear with it.

my History blocks is definitely screwed. i got back my paper and i was like 'OKAY i'm DEAD'. really. the lousiest marks i've gotten so far. i dare not say i've tried my best and i didnt really study hard for it. i deserve it but it's just helluva demoralising. Math doesnt affect me much because it's just MATH to me. it's not something i'm good at you see. in secondary school, i'm always like scoring well for History. right now, i'm just losing it. demoralising, but true.

school tires people out and it definitely made me suffer from premature aging. like really bad premature aging. with the CVD crap and all. it's bound to tire all of us out. what's the purpose of that thing? so that we can purchase new tables and chairs? i dont even care about the school and i doubt we have values to celebrate. i have to practice for the stupid performance and it's cutting my lips. i really appreciate Jonathan for being a nice and understanding SL because he doesnt push me so hard and let me take rests. he wont see this so it's alright. my section has nice people so i hope they'll understand my predicament. Atiqah would definitely know because she's been through it.

anyway, contributing to the school doesnt even benefit us. they'll probably introduce reforms after we graduate and they expect us to do shit for them and fork out money? utterly ridiculous and dont make sense at all.

Monster is another pain the ass. he banned me from using the damn computer when i'm supposed to be checking out the History blog and all but that's beside the point. he banned me because i used it at 11pm for a few minutes last night. how petty can he get? fuck.

too tired to continue typing. to distracted talking.

fuck school.